hello! life IS moving fast. look how little we've blogged-!
but wait, i just have to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOO YOOOU!!!! what did you do today? did you get your tattoo yet?
i have been thinking more and more about getting my septum pierced. with a little horseshoe. if i ever get around to it...
i went to another birthday party today, for my friend Anna. she is just great, and her friends are equally excellent. which made for a great picnic and round of the danish version of california kickball. (wait, is that i Canadian thing, or do you have california kickball in Utah? wikipedia says its just called kickball for you guys) ANYWAYS, tons of down to earth women, not wearing the danish-mandatory mascara. and anna even got a dildo for her birthday! hah! but most surprisingly, i got 3 separate compliments on my shoes. this may sound silly, but my shoes really stick out here. they are big clunky brown Keens, in a sea of feminine ballet-flats in girl colours. i always feel like they stick out here and am a little self conscious that i need to wear such supportive shoes to ease my foot pain. and i got compliments on them!!! outstanding, totally makes my week.
but also makes me sad, as i have become selfconscious about things as stupid and my SHOES in this godforsaken country.
which brings me to my next point:
6 WEEKS TIL I COME BACK HOME!!
GLORY GLORY GLORY!
you will beat me to my hometown, but your birthday present will be waiting for you there at my mom's house! and i will see you again soon my dear.
Hope your special day got you compliments on something you were not expecting, and maybe even a silly ball game too?
love you.
xxx
marie
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Dear Marie, grant writing, dandelion tattoo and a printmaking class
Dear Marie,
SO MUCH HAS BEEN HAPPENING!
I just can't even tell you the joy in my life right now.
When I was in my early 20s I was SURE that we were all just wandering around, suffering and miserable, working jobs to pay for things we thought would make us feel better, trying to navigate relationships that we'd just be better without, trying to make this human experience bearable. I don't feel like that at all anymore.
For example: This was my day.
I usually dread my office job, (see previous posts). I drag myself in at 9 (today it was 9:30 whoops), try to look busy all day and end up with a headache from squinting at the computer screen all day. I've been going back and forth for about a month: should I quit or should I stick it out?? All of the reasons for staying felt like fear of losing the sense of security the job provides, all the reasons for quitting felt like selfish and immature "but I want to PLAY" reasons. But one night I just said to myself: "my sister always says: if it's too hard to make a decision then don't. Just wait until it feels right" So I decided to stick with it. Low and behold the very next day I was presented with an amazing opportunity. The executive director asked me if I'd be willing to write a grant to get a mobile dental clinic up and running to provide care for people in rural communities that don't have access to care. HELLO! That is EXACTLY the reason I got into this whole healthcare world in the 1st place. I wanted to work for the under-served. BAM! The universe provides to those who succumb to it's wily ways.
THEN! I went to my printmaking class at the Saltgrass Printmakers' Studio in Sugarhouse. So great! I'm learning a process called frotage, which I'm sure you know, means rubbing in French (like sexy rubbing, hehe). It feels so so so so so so good to be taking art classes again. And processes that don't require drawing are good for my confidence. It feels equally as good to be able to AFFORD art classes without having to give up good meals.
AFTER THAT!! I went to the tattoo studio and made an appointment for my dandelion tattoo. Tattoo artists are such good people (at least Luis at Eleventh St. Electric Gallery is). Again, being able to afford this is an amazing feeling. It is my birthday present to myself. I am going to be twenty six years old!
I hope the springy feeling of luminosity is hitting you too! Write back.
Love you,
Jennica
PS: here is a new video by my new favorite: it's to make you feel good about being sad if that's what you're feeling right now:
SO MUCH HAS BEEN HAPPENING!
I just can't even tell you the joy in my life right now.
When I was in my early 20s I was SURE that we were all just wandering around, suffering and miserable, working jobs to pay for things we thought would make us feel better, trying to navigate relationships that we'd just be better without, trying to make this human experience bearable. I don't feel like that at all anymore.
For example: This was my day.
I usually dread my office job, (see previous posts). I drag myself in at 9 (today it was 9:30 whoops), try to look busy all day and end up with a headache from squinting at the computer screen all day. I've been going back and forth for about a month: should I quit or should I stick it out?? All of the reasons for staying felt like fear of losing the sense of security the job provides, all the reasons for quitting felt like selfish and immature "but I want to PLAY" reasons. But one night I just said to myself: "my sister always says: if it's too hard to make a decision then don't. Just wait until it feels right" So I decided to stick with it. Low and behold the very next day I was presented with an amazing opportunity. The executive director asked me if I'd be willing to write a grant to get a mobile dental clinic up and running to provide care for people in rural communities that don't have access to care. HELLO! That is EXACTLY the reason I got into this whole healthcare world in the 1st place. I wanted to work for the under-served. BAM! The universe provides to those who succumb to it's wily ways.
THEN! I went to my printmaking class at the Saltgrass Printmakers' Studio in Sugarhouse. So great! I'm learning a process called frotage, which I'm sure you know, means rubbing in French (like sexy rubbing, hehe). It feels so so so so so so good to be taking art classes again. And processes that don't require drawing are good for my confidence. It feels equally as good to be able to AFFORD art classes without having to give up good meals.
AFTER THAT!! I went to the tattoo studio and made an appointment for my dandelion tattoo. Tattoo artists are such good people (at least Luis at Eleventh St. Electric Gallery is). Again, being able to afford this is an amazing feeling. It is my birthday present to myself. I am going to be twenty six years old!
I hope the springy feeling of luminosity is hitting you too! Write back.
Love you,
Jennica
PS: here is a new video by my new favorite: it's to make you feel good about being sad if that's what you're feeling right now:
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