Dear Jennica,

Big News:

after work yesterday Hans met me and gave me the big news:
good news: he got a phD offer at university of western ontario. 28 000 a yr, 4 years. he gets to teach kids in english, and have peers passionate about the same things as him.
bad news: its in the middle of nowhere, FLAT ontario. the province i never wanted to live in!!!

i told him not to apply to places i didnt want to move to. but he did. he said 'we'll deal with it IF i get in! i wont even get in'

well, now hes in and weepy because i wont move there, and its an oppotunity he has GOT to take. AND its all happening in the middle of our goddamn holiday to paris! so much for carefree holiday-time with my old friends. the university has to hear a YES or NO from him on the day we get back!

aint life grand?
the poor guy cant even appreciate this crazy fantastic opportunity because he cant picture living anywhere without me. bah.

i am obviously not sure where i even want to be, i guess he should just go do this and let me work my shit out.

ok. enough of that.
maybe i will end up with you in SLC afterall.
xxx
marie

ps: i just cant let it go! can you imagine moving to this cultural backwater to follow some guy? the idea of living on campus as a university wife is so fucking weird. all of this is. i am only 24 and i am already busy following someone else's life around.